DARK BLURRY DAYS

 TRUSTING IN MATERIAL THINGS

A sad day arrives when our trust in people is so devastated that we close the book on love. The pain, disillusionment and disappointment won't allow us to delve deeply into anything in life, so we choose only the things on the surface, that which we can feel outside the body and see with our eyes. We can only trust what we can see and nothing else. We don't trust or have any dreams, or visions of the future, but only what each day brings. We trust only on our own abilities and skills and painfully plan every step of our lives like a military exercise. We have to have all the details before taking any steps. We always have to be in control of our emotions and also everything and everyone round us, otherwise we become irritated and unsettled. Nothing ever comes naturally or through spontaneity. This can take us far in life as far as material possessions are concerned, but it leaves an enormous hole in our lives - a deep emptiness and dissatisfaction with everything and everyone around us. This hole is an empty soul, the home where love resides and can be filled with nothing other then love, but we are unable to trust and therefore also unable to love. We continually try and fill this hole with more and more and more material things and never find true satisfaction , because "things" can never replace the love the soul demands. A life without love is a lonely life and continually leaves us disgruntled, simply because our soul desperately needs love. When living with someone like this, it is like walking on egg shells most of the time, because they find fault in every single thing we do - they tend to become outer perfectionists to make up for the lack inside, and no one can satisfy them. Their possessions become more important than even their families, leading to a lot of strife in a home. In the event of losing something material, all hell breaks loose and causes a massive upheaval with plenty of fighting and nastiness. If they had to lose all their material possessions they would completely fall to pieces because they have no safety net - nothing else to fall back on. Their lives are completely unbalanced. Trust should not be placed in people to start off with, it is too big for anyone to carry, we all make mistakes and do wrong things which break trust. TRUST BELONGS TO GOD - A FORCE GREATER THAN MAN AND from man we have no expectations except that which they can and are willing to give. We need love as an emotional balance in life for then we are able to withstand any fall. Material possessions then become what they are and nothing more....items and objects to use when and as we need them. If it is there, great, if not, it is also okay, we can still get along without them for our true strength comes from our emotional stability, which when attached to Gods love is unbreakable and totally separate from worldly possessions....©

Tomorrow......affairs....