HELPLESS REMORSE

GRIPPLING SHAME

Shame of mistakes, speaking out of turn, doing something stupid is very real and very crippling. We want the earth to open and swallow us. Already we feel so stupid and belittled, we don't need it to be rubbed in with "I told you so, why don't you ever listen, you idiot, etc." Then to still use shame as a means to train or control others is downright mean. We cringe in and try to become as small as we can to just escape. It makes a person feel so helpless and vulnerable, small and insignificant. Sometimes remorse is so enormous it eats us up alive.....we don't know what to do about it so it becomes part of the baggage we carry around and each time a similar event pops up, we take a dip back into our dungeons of shame. It sticks like bubblegum to a wool blanket and we become hardened inside to protect ourselves. We pretend nothing matters and so what, while we are being eaten up inside. It feels like the whole world is watching us wherever we go - the result of guilt feelings. People look anyway without intending to but due to the guilt IT FEELS LIKE THEY CAN SEE INSIDE US. IT IS A SIDE EFFECT OF GUILT - THAT'S ALL.......they can't really see inside....it is merely the emotions playing up. When our mistakes are thrown back at us or used against us to manipulate us into further wrongdoing, which some people do, we become captives of our own shame and life becomes very, very dark. It also breeds terrible rebellion, anger and aggression in us because we lash out to as a means of self defense. Shameful things should never be done to a child and the guilt then planted on them...... "you dirty little girl or boy"..... When porn is shown to us to defile our minds and souls, often leading to sexual abuse, we should never remain silent. We all make mistakes and should not be shamed or belittled or ridiculed....it happens. What we should be taught is how to deal with it in an appropriate manner. This is another thing WE SHOULD NEVER HIDE - IN THE WRONG HANDS IT BECOMES A POWERFUL WEAPON TO MAKE US SLAVES TO THEIR BIDDING. Children should be taught to be open and when they are not to insult, degrade or trash them even further. We should always help them understand what happened and the sickness of the world and through explanation restore their purity as best as we can. We expose the whole sordid little story and show them their innocence and each ones part so they don't have to carry this with them for many years to come. It can mess up their entire life if left to ride. SHAME IS A VERY HEAVY CROSS, REMORSE IS AN INVISIBLE CANCER THAT EATS AWAY AT OUR HEARTS AND SOULS......DON'T LET IT DO THIS......©

Tomorrow....you just don't understand....