HURT SO BAD
When we hurt so bad that when we see love in others it is like a dagger that twists and turns until we cannot bear it any longer, then we rant and rage because of the immense pain. ......A REACTION ..... we don't intentionally want to hurt others, the pain just becomes like a volcano thay spews and spews pain, anger and rage and many become bitterly hurt simply because we don't understand the force behind it. As we learn more about the depth and power of love, we are able to restrain ourselves from being drawn in. It is a matter of WILL until we become accustomed to it. WE WILL OURSELVES TO REMAIN CALM until the storm has passed, which is by no means an easy feat. Once the tornado has blown out, we try to reach for the cause - that terrible pain inside. Remember, the explosion is due to destruction, brokenness and torment inside the person who erupts - it has very little to do with the receiver, but everything to do with the givers inability to deal with the brokenness and when we remain calm, clearly understanding this, we firstly don't get hurt by it and secondly it hurts the giver far less when they see they didn't hurt us. Internal damage is very, very hard to live with and after such a violent outburst these people always feel terrible because deep in their hearts they honestly didn't mean it. Heartache and pain is a terrible controlling force in a persons life and extremely difficult to reach because it often has to do with shame, abuse and ridicule which the victim chooses to hide. Then it festers and grows and makes them very, very ill emotionally and possibly also mentally and physically. The only way to heal a festering wound is to open it up, clean it out completely and use the ointment of love to heal it. When it remains inside it makes us feel totally unworthy and that is a major reason we don't want help. We simply feel we are not worth it which is so very, very wrong. If we were not worth it we wouldn't have received life at all. This pain takes on a life force of its own and easily uses our doubts, brokenness and fears to rage out of control.....it is basically a neglected spirit - THE REAL US - THE INNER BEING....©
Tomorrow....what breaks us so bad.....
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